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I'm leaving this account for quite a long time but I will be back, so please don't unwatch me, thanks.
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I decided to leave this account for undetermined amount of time. You might say that I was not the most active user anyway, especially lately, but I was really following everything that's going on here and tried to leave no comment/fave unanswered.

I don't want to disclose my reasons here, it would be tremendously stupid anyway. I already stirred shit too much in this case and the wisest thing to do now is to suck it up. It's just that this summer brutally reminded me, that I'm still equally creature of not only reason but emotion too, and will always be. That often makes me fail the most when I care the most. Oh, well, according to Many Worlds Interpretation of quantum mechanics there are universes where it everything went as I'd like it to. Yay for that another universes me.
Now I want to concentrate on upcoming events and stop dwelling on past so much. Last year taught me that I can accomplish many things successfully, that I don't fail as much as I thought. That in fact there are some things that I excel in.
Unfortunately to achieve this 'stop-dwelling-on-past' goal I have to leave this site for some time. I really reconsidered it thousands of times in my mind and was really hesitating, because it's a goodbye to chapter of my life that left such a deep mark on me, that I know it will always be there. Even though I hate to make it all past and I feel like I'm forced to amputate a part of myself, I still know it's the only reasonable thing to do. And it's the highest time for reason to take the wheel and push the pedal to the metal.

Right. Now to more optimistic matters. They say you're more likely to stick to your goals (and they back it up with a research results) if more people know them, so here's what I plan for oncoming year:

1) My studies begin in October. I want to see how well I perform in academic environment and if I can do it good then I want to go for a Ph.D. and become a research scientist (cognitive science or computational physics... but any combo of computers+natural/social science will do for me, I guess). Let's just say it's a pursuit I abandoned long, long ago and now I'm ready to walk an extra mile (or thousand) to get back to it.

2) Earn more. Self-explanatory isn't it? But really my financial needs are getting bigger (have to pay for my schooling) and soon I will be in need of some extra cash if I want to maintain my standard of living which currently allows me for a fairly leisurely lifestyle.

3) Get a driving license. I postponed it long enough, I think it's high time to do this, especially that other means of locomotion are slowly starting to make me sick. I'll start as soon as I get the money, and if I'll be having trouble with this, then I'll ask parents to give me money for the last time. They still owe me over 1k anyway... or rather my dad owes me, because they're not together anymore and he's the one who borrowed from me.

And two others but I'd rather not disclose them here, even with the risk of greater chance of abandoning them

Of course I'm not giving up on photography, you can always check my portfolio at carbonmade. I will update it from time to time, but I promise to save best stuff for my return here.

So I guess this concludes this too long entry and my business here as well, at least for now. See you in future!

...hang up my rock and roll shoes.


The journal was getting older and older, almost begging for an update, so here's some recent stuff from me, if you're interested:

If anyone'd want to drop a bomb on my house, spy me with satellite or something, then one's gotta know, that I have changed my coordinates a little by moving to another town. You can now find me in Gdansk most of the time.

I don't do any photography recently, I just found other things to do in my free time, like learning or procrastinating. Of course I could just post some of my other work (I do some graphic design), but most of it is commercial (and not very artistic to be honest) and I don't hold the rights to publish it. Besides I don't think it's good enough. When it will be, I'll gladly share some of it here. My lost of interest for photography is only temporary too, so there WILL be some new pics from time to time.

In the meantime you can see some pics of my new place (actually it's a room in my friend's new flat that I rent; I'm not rich enough to buy my own, yet) if you're that interested:
desk and stuff
shelves - some nerd books, my photo stuff and a small part of my collection of old computers/consoles (unfortunately, I had to left most of it in my family home with parents )
outside (blue-yellow buildings on the left)
kitchen window view

I don't know what to study: physics, computer science or psychology. Too bad they don't produce three-sided coins, I have to decide myself this time. Okay... life decided for me this time. I can't study physics, because universities here do not offer extramural studies in physics and I don't want to drop my job and flip burgers in McDonald's at weekends just to survive 5 years of study. Psychology? Too much memorizing for a procrastinator like me. So computers it is.


My friends and clubs

I was tagged by the nasty bastard ~Fire-vel-Aeyne, so let's get this over with:

Rules are:
1. Post these rules.
2. Each tagged person should post at least 8 facts of themselves.
3. Tagged people should write a Journal\Blog about these facts.
4. In the end, tag and name 8 more people.
5. Go to their DA pages and comment saying that they are tagged and hugged.
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1. I love science. Seriously, all sciences, from physics to psychology.
2. I'm extremely curious.
3. I'm often mistaken for outgoing person because of my curiosity. Actually I'm quite reserved.
4. Sometimes I purposefully ignore social conventions, because I consider most of them to be stupid and unnecessary. It has often brought me in conflict with others and led to many misunderstandings.
5. On the other hand I can be extremely cynical and make sarcastic remarks about people who ignore social conventions only to stand out.
6. I'm a night owl. My ideal uptime would be something around 12PM - 3AM. Sometimes I like to get up early but only to break the routine, I dislike doing it on regular basis.
7. I hate 12 hours time system. Just realized it writing previous fact.
8. Sometimes I happen to have some strange idea, and then I just GOT to do it right now, no matter what time it is. Or I just wouldn't be able to sleep.

No tagging. All my friends are already tagged anyway _-_


Friends & Clubs

...until you clicked on the link.

Well, I just remembered something strange, about having a journal on some strange site which I post my photos on. This time I promise to submit new devs a little more often (but not very often, I don't wanna lie to you), nice weather has come and it's a good opportunity to go out, take a walk and shoot some photos. I've got two new filters and some new macro glasses, maybe I'll put them to some good use. I kinda miss my long photographic escapades, it's been quite long time since the last one It's just that some other interests took first place and I don't spend so much time on photography as I used to.


Now for the fun part (or maybe rather filler-crap part?) - I done a little research on internet personality tests and found this two most accurate and fun:

1) MTBI

Introverted (I) 83.33% Extroverted (E) 16.67%
Intuitive (N) 70.83% Sensing (S) 29.17%
Thinking (T) 70.83% Feeling (F) 29.17%
Perceiving (P) 58.33% Judging (J) 41.67%

Your type is: INTP - "Architect". Greatest precision in thought and language. Can readily discern contradictions and inconsistencies. The world exists primarily to be understood. 3.3% of total population.


2) GLOBAL 5

Extroversion |||||| 27%
Orderliness |||||||||||||| 52%
Emotional Stability |||||||||||||||||| 78%
Accommodation |||||||||||||| 52%
Inquisitiveness |||||||||||||||||||| 84%

Extroversion results were low which suggests you are very reclusive, quiet, unassertive, and secretive.

Orderliness results were medium which suggests you are moderately organized, structured, and self controlled while still remaining flexible, varied, and fun.

Emotional Stability results were high which suggests you are very relaxed, calm, secure, and optimistic.

Accommodation results were medium which suggests you are moderately kind natured, trusting, and helpful while still maintaining your own interests.

Inquisitiveness results were very high which suggests you are extremely intellectual, curious, imaginative but possibly not very practical.

Global 5: sloan RCOAI; sloan+ rCOA|I|; primary Inquisitive; R(73%)C(78%)O(52%)A(52%)I(84%)
(2.5% of women; 4.5% of men)

not relationship obsessed, withdrawn, risk averse, not wild and crazy, toned down, thinks before acting, fearless, peaceful, does not like to be the center of attention, quiet, relaxed, level emotions, averse to crowds, unadventurous, punctual, non-aggressive, interested in science, patient, not easily deterred, loner, good at saving money, private, values solitude, avoids unnecessary interaction, not spontaneous, avoids small talk, positive, not overly expressive of emotions, lower energy level, calm in crisis, always knows why they do things, theistic tendencies (haha <- sry, had to comment on that one), non-antagonistic, predictable, analytical, optimistic, not prone to jealousy, not prone to addiction, not preoccupied with appearance, unswayed by emotions, deeply moved by the misfortunes of others, usually happy, influenced more by self than others, true to themself in all circumstances, modest, finishes most things they start, always prepared, competent, focused, more responsible than pleasure seeking, socially unskilled, realistic, planner, not physically affectionate with most people, self confident.



The results reflect my personality quite well, but with a few of this characteristics I cannot agree. The first test (Myers-Briggs Type Indicator) I took a few times, because it's very popular and there's a lot of pages that offer this test on the web. And my results were mostly INTP, but sometimes I got INTJ. After all I decided to post INTP result, because I find it a little more accurate.

both tests taken from [link]

Well, see ya next time I remember I've got a journal on my dA userpage (and that'll probably be in about half a year +-3 months )!


Friends & Clubs

Decided to group it here, it takes a lot of space.
If you are not on list here and you'd like to be or if you are and would not like to be - note me.

the interwebz
- Black, red and sexy. My sweetest friend & great artist.
- Very perverted creature & great friend.
- His seme & nice girl. Your red hair rock, so stop complaining!

real(?) life
#MCROTFL - consists of 8 members (including myself)
- My friend & great guy to talk to.
- You still kill me, when you're high, you know? XD
- Friend next door. Loooong hours played on the LAN together
- Fellow photographer and good friend.
- A real devil in disguise, dude, sometimes you rock. Do it more often XD
- Very l33t person and my friend since looooong ago. *passes the bottle of rum*
- As above XD

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- It's always pleasure to argue with you a little on IRC (i przestan kufa zaslaniac mi to swiatlo! XD)

~~Other Friendly People & Artists~~


~~~Clubs~~~