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I'm leaving this account for quite a long time but I will be back, so please don't unwatch me, thanks.
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I decided to leave this account for undetermined amount of time. You might say that I was not the most active user anyway, especially lately, but I was really following everything that's going on here and tried to leave no comment/fave unanswered.

I don't want to disclose my reasons here, it would be tremendously stupid anyway. I already stirred shit too much in this case and the wisest thing to do now is to suck it up. It's just that this summer brutally reminded me, that I'm still equally creature of not only reason but emotion too, and will always be. That often makes me fail the most when I care the most. Oh, well, according to Many Worlds Interpretation of quantum mechanics there are universes where it everything went as I'd like it to. Yay for that another universes me.
Now I want to concentrate on upcoming events and stop dwelling on past so much. Last year taught me that I can accomplish many things successfully, that I don't fail as much as I thought. That in fact there are some things that I excel in.
Unfortunately to achieve this 'stop-dwelling-on-past' goal I have to leave this site for some time. I really reconsidered it thousands of times in my mind and was really hesitating, because it's a goodbye to chapter of my life that left such a deep mark on me, that I know it will always be there. Even though I hate to make it all past and I feel like I'm forced to amputate a part of myself, I still know it's the only reasonable thing to do. And it's the highest time for reason to take the wheel and push the pedal to the metal.

Right. Now to more optimistic matters. They say you're more likely to stick to your goals (and they back it up with a research results) if more people know them, so here's what I plan for oncoming year:

1) My studies begin in October. I want to see how well I perform in academic environment and if I can do it good then I want to go for a Ph.D. and become a research scientist (cognitive science or computational physics... but any combo of computers+natural/social science will do for me, I guess). Let's just say it's a pursuit I abandoned long, long ago and now I'm ready to walk an extra mile (or thousand) to get back to it.

2) Earn more. Self-explanatory isn't it? But really my financial needs are getting bigger (have to pay for my schooling) and soon I will be in need of some extra cash if I want to maintain my standard of living which currently allows me for a fairly leisurely lifestyle.

3) Get a driving license. I postponed it long enough, I think it's high time to do this, especially that other means of locomotion are slowly starting to make me sick. I'll start as soon as I get the money, and if I'll be having trouble with this, then I'll ask parents to give me money for the last time. They still owe me over 1k anyway... or rather my dad owes me, because they're not together anymore and he's the one who borrowed from me.

And two others but I'd rather not disclose them here, even with the risk of greater chance of abandoning them

Of course I'm not giving up on photography, you can always check my portfolio at carbonmade. I will update it from time to time, but I promise to save best stuff for my return here.

So I guess this concludes this too long entry and my business here as well, at least for now. See you in future!